November

profit: $3896

Robert says
  i'm gonna lose it if u make 6k
gonna need more panties
john wang said (11:07 AM)
LOL

Played close to 1k games of heads up....Well, I guess here it is, my first official pro month of online poker. I made the biggest, stupidest mistake in the middle of the month setting a goal to make $7-$10k...at the time it seemed like everything was on my side, my confidence was peaking and I was crushing hard...I was up $6k around the 15th-16th and O MY SHIT I went on the biggest downswing of my career....I posted the EV graph in my previous entry, it was really really bad....It's really fked up how I lost basically all the $100s, $160, $200 but won the $50s and $80s. 80% of my opponents were -20%+ROI fishbowls....

I tried everything to turn it around, been going to the gym every weekday and working out for 30 minutes, I cleaned up my room, cleared my desk, held onto my beretta while grinding, CJ told me to wear my boxers inside out cuz he saw it in some chinese poker movie....I FKN TRIED EVERYTHING BASICALLY....$3500 downswing=no fun.

I'm gonna make a list right now of all the things I did wrong this month and hopefully improve on them for December:

- biggest mistake where I extended my loosing sessions and cut short the winning ones....this is career threatening and the biggest leak...I've always known this, this is what makes IVEY such a great player...it's just so hard to put into practice....I've been getting better but definitely need to improve on this.

- I once again set a stupid profit goal instead of volume...after I set the goal, I felt empty knowning I wasn't going to reach it and affected my sleep/mindset...

- I only reviewed once this entire month...where I watched the video Robert made, and it really helped a lot...I need to do this more and keep myself in check....it's easy to drift away from A gaming when I grind 40-50 games/day.

I did a lot of thigns right though....I am so fkn proud of myself of maintaining a 10%ROI 3-4 tabling...I never thought I'd be able to do this when I was struggling to move up to 3 tables. I cleared a lot of rake, made Iron man on FT, on my way to getting Black Card next month and got Gold VIP on STARS. What this means is that with the current volume I'm playing, I can easily clear $1.5k/month in bonuses/rakeback from both sites...

I gotta step it up next month, no more profit goals....maintain focus, build my roll up for January. SORRY ROB, KEEP THEM PANTIES ON FOR DECEMBER