November

profit: $3896

Robert says
  i'm gonna lose it if u make 6k
gonna need more panties
john wang said (11:07 AM)
LOL

Played close to 1k games of heads up....Well, I guess here it is, my first official pro month of online poker. I made the biggest, stupidest mistake in the middle of the month setting a goal to make $7-$10k...at the time it seemed like everything was on my side, my confidence was peaking and I was crushing hard...I was up $6k around the 15th-16th and O MY SHIT I went on the biggest downswing of my career....I posted the EV graph in my previous entry, it was really really bad....It's really fked up how I lost basically all the $100s, $160, $200 but won the $50s and $80s. 80% of my opponents were -20%+ROI fishbowls....

I tried everything to turn it around, been going to the gym every weekday and working out for 30 minutes, I cleaned up my room, cleared my desk, held onto my beretta while grinding, CJ told me to wear my boxers inside out cuz he saw it in some chinese poker movie....I FKN TRIED EVERYTHING BASICALLY....$3500 downswing=no fun.

I'm gonna make a list right now of all the things I did wrong this month and hopefully improve on them for December:

- biggest mistake where I extended my loosing sessions and cut short the winning ones....this is career threatening and the biggest leak...I've always known this, this is what makes IVEY such a great player...it's just so hard to put into practice....I've been getting better but definitely need to improve on this.

- I once again set a stupid profit goal instead of volume...after I set the goal, I felt empty knowning I wasn't going to reach it and affected my sleep/mindset...

- I only reviewed once this entire month...where I watched the video Robert made, and it really helped a lot...I need to do this more and keep myself in check....it's easy to drift away from A gaming when I grind 40-50 games/day.

I did a lot of thigns right though....I am so fkn proud of myself of maintaining a 10%ROI 3-4 tabling...I never thought I'd be able to do this when I was struggling to move up to 3 tables. I cleared a lot of rake, made Iron man on FT, on my way to getting Black Card next month and got Gold VIP on STARS. What this means is that with the current volume I'm playing, I can easily clear $1.5k/month in bonuses/rakeback from both sites...

I gotta step it up next month, no more profit goals....maintain focus, build my roll up for January. SORRY ROB, KEEP THEM PANTIES ON FOR DECEMBER

frustration

I sometimes wish poker's like a sport, or even break dance, where I can take satisfaction after a practice session, or a game despite loosing because the sweat always remind me of the hard work I put in.

FULL TILT, PLEASE STOP RAPING ME

8 more days to go...

Profit so far this month is $4212.

I took shots at $160 4mans and $200, and ran like shit recently...on a semi downswing of about $1500 and counting in the past 4 days. I've been going to the gym every weekday for the past week which is good. I didn't do too great in terms of volume, played nowhere close to 50 games/day but I can honestly say I put decent quality in my games. I would say for the past 2 weeks, I've been finding out what routine/schedule is best for poker and so far I am going to bed at around 4-6 am everyday, waking up at 2-3pm and gym from 5:30-6:30. What I do between the time I wake up and the time I head to gym is completely random and basically a huge waste of fkn time...I sometimes grind for an hour, but mostly just browsing, talking to people.

Get home, dinner, and start grinding from 8pm. On average I think playing 3-4 hours/day which leaves one question.....wtf should I do for the remaining 20 hrs? Gym is definitely going good, but I need to find more things to do to get my mind off poker. I even tried signing up for utm classes but they fkn said I missed the deadline......bitches

I don't think I'll meet anywhere close to $10k this month but meh...it's hard because I went pro on the 11th officially so this month is not a "full month". Also, I am grinding 20/30s on stars with a 1k roll and getting raped which is no fun.

I am definitely optimistic, no turning back, the place that I'm from don't exist anymore...no regrets, no apologies...

PRO

yes im running hot, yes im A-gaming 100 percent, yes i jus went pro, no its not luck, no i won't stop.
heading to gym tomorrow, i got that stress look off my face, feeling good, pumping out volume with ease, reading my books, studying my game. 5-10k end of this month, take shots at $200s in 2011.

i know you still hate me, i dedicate this to you, what did i ever do to make your life so sad :(

Recent Results
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