Wednesday, July 20, 2011

ADAPT

 













  Just set a record for most games played in a day, grinded 120 games today...woot. On the 29th I called CJ right away and told him about the FT situation, July 3rd I received the stake $$ and immediately jumped right back in business. 600 games later im up $1750ish on stars w/ the bonuses. I turned the $60 rob shipped me on cake for the husng membership into $600 in less than a weak grinding 5s, 10s, 20s, 30s. That put me at about $2300 so far this month...not bad at all considering what happened. Thanks to CJ for being understanding and putting his full trust in me...I had to ask him to help me out cuz I didn't want to go through July with no income...Time is $$.

I made about $5000 in June playing 55s mostly on FT...have about $7000 still on the site though...I'm getting to the point where if there is a chance that I might never get that back, I won't be as pissed off as before. Life goes on...Nobody coulda foretold this, and it had to happen on my first year of going pro. At least I took most of my roll off the site after April 15th, I coulda easily had over 10k+ on the site like I used to...

This will be another test to my patience and persistence, since april 15th, I haven't played a single game > $100s...mostly at the 50s....patiently grinding it out, put in more volume than I did back in the 1st 3 months of the year to make up for profit loss...

In all honestly, I feel like it's always such a close call for me in these, narrowly squeezing through tight situations like I've been doing all my life. I guess I failed at my goal to reach $200-$300s this year. Is it entirely my fault? Obviously not but again I coulda done much better controlling my spending habits. Such is life though....right now I am focused, and feel purpose in what I do...I will forever be my biggest and only critic, other than a few friends I trust, most of you ppl don't ever get to criticize me...don't brag shit to me man, I keep a low profile, real dudes move in silence, your best success is my worst blunder HA.

o ya....and one last thing, ppl get lazy as they grow old in life i think, STOP FKN ASKING ME STUPID QUESTIONS, THERE IS NO TRICK, NO SECRET.....PUT IN WORK AND GET PAID. Phil Ivey is not good because he's a poker prodigy, he's good because he's played more hours of poker than a lot of ppl same age as him when he was young, he lived in casino hotels to up his game, he would bust his tech support pay checks to rebuild his roll, he would repeat that until he gets to that point of awesome. PERSISTENCE IS OMNIPOTENT, ALL I GOT IS PERSISTENCE BOOOOM.


Wednesday, June 29, 2011

GETTING EMOTIONAL....OVER MONEY WHAT ELSE

Online poker is so damn sketchy...If I paid more attention to what went on, if I read more subjectpoker.com, about FT and its 60million player loans, I would've cashed out my entire roll and moved over to stars after black Friday. Too late now, I've been optimist for the past month, patiently waiting for my withdrawals, digging into my savings, putting shit on my credit cards. When I got a $1k instadebit monday it felt like rain on a forest fire. The $2k check was sent out apparently but I am honestly not hopping for much at this point. Plus another 1k in process and 4k life roll, I guess I have about $8k in limbo status...

I'm gonna stop reading 2p2 for a while, so much emotion in ppl's posts...I still think everyone will get their money back in the long run...how can these pros show their faces if they don't? don't disappoint me mr. Ivey ,you're still my hero.

my dad's always told me about debt, never to go in debt, pay back credit card bills on time, don't easily take loans...etc I've been thinking, what the fk is the point? you can make a good living, make enough to support yourself, your family, your house, cars, and in the end find out even though you yourself's not in debt, your fkn employer is...U.S Gov't has some 20 trillion debt, printing money like it's nothing...Cereus poker had over 50mil in player debts while having only 6 mil liquidity LMAO....moments like black friday show what ppl's true colors are...I heard the reason Stars management was better than FT and handled their money better was because their owners are jewish..

I try to remain calm...but I don't blame anyone getting emotional over all this...I feel like such a pawn and the game's jus getting dirtier...How can I trust FT, or even Stars after this past 2 months? I had just talked to CJ about staking me on Stars when I go back to Beijing...I feel now I am responsible to let him know that there are factors and risks outside our control, and the sketchy nature of this business.

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