stay positive

2 days ago I almost lost it, my eyes turned bloodshot and I was snap rematching this horrible reg at the $100s on stars 2 tabling. He was very spew aggro and was eager to get any draws in, played like he was on meds. I was prepared take his roll or lose mine, because I knew he wouldn't stop rematching either.

20ish games later i was down about $1k but I came back to my senses and decided to quit. He won most of the flips, 4bet shoved flush draws n got there twice and basically played like a moron, e.g 4bet shove 55 3rd hand of game....etc. I haven't gotten this pissed in a long time and realized that even after 2 years of part/full-time poker I am still capable of acting degenerate.

I calmed myself, next day I woke up a bit earlier and saw him at lobby, insta sat him and opened up 2nd game, got insta sat and continued. 3 games later i was 2-1 but he won 2 big flips and A9>AQ'd. Gonna keep playing this guy and bust him.

It might be because of the weather lately, I'm getting mildly depressed...I was told to take Vitamin D. Keeping up with gym, scheduled to see trainer tomorrow...I keep reminding myself that going pro's not easy, and I'm gonna have to improve my mindset, attitude, if I want to do this for 2 years...Maintaining a fixed schedule when I can wake up whenever I want is difficult, but I'm gonna keep trying, fail to succeed....BOOM

O ya, another thing to note, I will start coaching a friend of mine who's had very little experience w/ poker. I handed him NL THEORY BY SKLANSKY today and will start teaching him heads up tomorrow, in return he's gonna cook for me and do my laundry. I gave up coaching this one guy last year because that dude exhibited everything I hate about poker players, had no talent at all and was ridiculously degenerate...I felt like it was a complete waste of time for both of us. Hope this time it'll turn out better..I'm also doing this to review my own game theory, hhs, and to help getting into routine by waking up early. Black card updated and I want to average 1500 ftps from now on for the 3xftp....easily achievable if I can wake up early and play more sessions.

I am the truth, on a whole nother lvl

Who am I besides homie that expose the phoney?